At some point, we all go back to square one. To gain hold of our foundation again. For a long time now, I have been saying that I’ve been doing my Year and a Day, but in all honesty. . .
I’ve been inconsistent on a lot of things lately, especially my Year and a Day. Then I read a post from The Traveling Witch about how inconsistency isn’t a bad thing. Though I do agree with Avery, I have been inconsistent with my learning in general. It has been almost like I am blindfolded and swinging my arms around looking for the door.
I have read through books that were meant to be a framework, or lesson plan, for self-study, but none of the provided the information that I craved. Nor did they do it in a way I could completely follow.
So I’ve decided to create my own Year and a Day.
But what is a Year and a Day?
The idea of the Year and a Day is inspired by the story of Cerridwen and her cauldron. In the story, Cerridwen has a son who is by no means beautiful and in order to help him to be able to find love she created a potion in a cauldron to give him a vast amount of wisdom. For the potion to be complete, it needed to be stirred constantly for a year an a day. For the complete story, here is a good writing of it from Ancient Origins.
Where I’ve had troubles up to this point.
Most, if not all, of the books I have read through so far have been of an eclectic approach and have used a handful of random gods from multiple pantheons. At the core of me, I am a Celtic Pagan and follow the path of the Tuatha de Danaan and other Celtic gods. Unfortunately, most of these books mentions them and other Celtic legends very little if at all. If I want to know anything about them, the only way I will is if I do my research myself.
I have always had issue with the level system that is associated with Wicca. It really doesn’t fit with me, especially since I am solitary. Every book includes an initiation ritual to enter the next level of a coven. Since it doesn’t work for me, a dedication ritual feels like it is enough for me.
My biggest issue has been that the books I was using all take a very shallow approach upon each topic they try to teach. It’s essentially a quick summary of something and an associated “activity” to go with it before it moves on to the next thing. I am the type of person who wants to be as knowledgeable as possible on a topic before I move on to the next thing. I love research and my goal is to have full understanding of each aspect of what I believe and practice.
I decided to start it again on Halloween this year and took my time assessing how I want to approach it. I can only hope that this will bring me to a deeper understanding of who I am and what I believe.
Hopefully by November 1st of 2018, I will be a different person.
Wish me luck